4 Years Ago....

Klement just sent me an email that i've written when im on board my 2nd ship...which is like 4 years back... looking back at the email remind me of the days back then... can't really remember saying all those words but just to let you all see what i've written to my buddy...

p/s: contain some mild abusive language...(cannot blame la...seamen are like that....glad i've changed)




To: klementlow80@msn.com

how are you doing lately? never hear from you liao....for me so far...im rather depressed over many things....mainly on my incompetancy over many things....after this sg captain is on board...he let me open my eyes on the things around me...hate myself for not putting any effort in studying....i see for myself for the past 3 months like doing nothing sia.....plenty assessment lacking back....from today onwards have to really start my engines until i sign off.....or else i'll be lacking back on my next ship...because of my laziness...i think i have to finish some of my assessment when im back home....shit!
For the days this captain has been here...im been fucked left right center....but he make me reliase that i have to take responsiblity over things im doing....instead of complaining this and that.....
But yesterday he told me something that wake me up from my dreamland...
there are 3 types of people in this world...
1)people who don;t know what's happening
2)people wondering why things happening
3)people who make things happen...
decide what kind of person you want to be and work for it....bear it in your mind at all times.....
i also read on something about growing up and growing old....it does not mean that as age gets older,you will grow mature...it's the things that happened to us and we learn it from that point of time...some are hard lessons that we always remember for the rest of our life...others we just bypass it until the thing rehappen time and time again....as long as everything you do...you don't regret what you have done...old people are not afraid of dying,having no regrets except for the things that they wish to do when they have the ability to do...
i see for myself for the past accomplishments....those are the things that i can say...hey!i've done it when im at this age....even now...sailing has opened manythings in my life that i've never reliased before...and now the captain is training me to be a good officer...but i feel that he's molding me into a better person...a person who is willing to learn and being responsible for the things he does and always tell the truth for what he has done is a good man....that's his motto.....can see that he has incredible knowledge over many things here.......i want to have that kind of confidence.....

so now i've decided to step up and spent my time on my studies and constantly upgrading myself so that i can be a better person......
take care of yourself ah!sent my regards to your family...really miss your mom


regards,

Zhuang Kaiwen






I personally like the email that states the 3 types of people... it's very scary that i did say all those words before...when im just 18.....guessed sailing really bring up my personally from young.... Anyway...

Looking at the past will only be history....looking into the future is what's important in life, isn't it?